Love jealous one, love

Mathew 5:23-26
23"Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.

25"Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court. Do it while you are still with him on the way, or he may hand you over to the judge, and the judge may hand you over to the officer, and you may be thrown into prison. 26I tell you the truth, you will not get out until you have paid the last penny.

This is Jesus sermon on the mount.

Peace at all cost is a phrase that keeps running through my head I would read this. Many times we can get so justified in our ways that we forget to reconcile ourselves to one another. Reconciliation is fundamental element in Christianity. God came and reconciled himself with us on the cross, not because we deserved it, but because it is who God is. He desires mercy not wrath, love not hate.
If you have anyone you need to make amends with, no matter who fault, or whatever reason you can think of. Remember to wash your brothers feet. Love, seek peace, and give of yourself. Don't let pride declare victory over you.
Love jealous one, love

"Forgive us for forgetting to love. I surrender all to you, resurrect yourself within me"

We are not Gods!

Revelation 4:10 "the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne, and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say:
11"You are worthy, our Lord and God,
to receive glory and honor and power,
for you created all things,
and by your will they were created
and have their being."

This is what John saw right when he got caught up.

When they saw him they threw down there Crowns. "We would not even come to Him if He didn't even draw us" (Two Tress in the Garden). What Crowns do we wear in the presences of God that we refuse to give up or let go of. I just hope that my heart is still soft to His voice. He is the leader, and I am only someone He granted to lead with, together. Sometimes when we made choices in this life it's easy to make decisions about our life's direction based solely on wisdom. What's the right decision, the right thing to do, the right place to go. Sometimes though, the decision are really about probability. To increase the probability that are life will come out okay. Well find the right job, spouse, Life... and we will leave Jesus at the fork in the road of life, when life began to become burdensome.
We can really be self-centered, and only care that at the end of are life we will be okay. Where is the Faith in that, or the Love, the Hope in Christ? We can do great things in this world and leave Christ behind. The crowns we wear can be so foolish. We are not Kings by birth, We are not Gods! We are nothing without Christ. Jesus follow God all the way to the cross. Let us strive to be selfless, and truly make God the focus of our lives.

"I never want to leave you again. I never want to make a decision without you again. Lord, I know that when I look at you healing fills my soul. I am not a sinner. My heart is good, and I am not condemn by you. You have made me up right and I want to lead with you, not against. I surrender once again. Fill me"

Finding a Constant

John 18:1-11

I look up to that. Under the weight of life I can find rest in that. Not because of the story, but because Jesus lives inside of me. No longer will I fold under the pressure weighing me down, I just can't. Jesus truly is greater than the world. He overcame the weight that was given to him, he overcame the ridged-ness of the hearts of men, he concord my heart and I've surrender. How can he stand up to that betrayal with such heart? I honor my Savior. There is no one like him, truly no one.

"Come through for me again, Father. Come through like you always do. I've fought and fought and I just can't seem to win. Is it pointless for me to continue? Why have I lost so much? This battle is to cruel for my heart. I can't shake it and it is consuming me. Come through for me once again. Remember me, remember my heart. I long for you, O'lord. There is no one like you and no one can come close. Only you can clean the hearts of men. Only you redeem the minds of men. Take my heart, take my mind, take all of me. Under all this weight, I give it all to you. Take me home under your wing."

Never give up

^{Acts 27:18-20 " 18}We took such a violent battering from the storm that the next day they began to throw the cargo overboard. ¹⁹On the third day, they threw the ship's tackle overboard with their own hands. ²⁰When neither sun nor stars appeared for many days and the storm continued raging, we finally gave up all hope of being saved."

This is at the end of the book of acts. Paul is going to Rome to be tried as a Roman for blasphemy, I think. Anyway, so there sailing to Rome, when a violent storms comes up out of no where and just attacks the ship. They start throwing stuff off to lighten the boat for hopes of redemption, but to no avail. Finally they throw the ship's tackle off and gave up all hope.

A ship's tackle is the gear that is used in ship. So like ropes for sails, compass, etc. If you ever get caught in life or death situation where you need to live off the land for many days till rescue come, the will to survive is all that matters (thanks, surviverman) . How long can you still content, at peace, at rest when your life has a storm? How long can you survive? Some people think they can, because they can. Hard mind, hard heart, a die hard, and you'll go the way of the Dodo. We can't survive alone, we need manna, and so when life comes down hard don't throw your tackle off your life. How are you supposed to get home with no tackle, with no ropes or a compass? You'll be lost at sea.
Never give up on prayer and others praying for you. Never give up on scripture. And most importantly never give up in worship, for it's worship that sustains us.

"Lord redeem me. Redeem what I've given up on. Help me get back home. I'll set my eyes on you, for you are my true north. Draw me close and remove all my carnality. Empty, and fill me back up with you savior."

I'm more blessed than I deserve

It's a good day
Worship was excellent
Friends are great
I always love to hear Justin
Especially his prayer
When you get more done than you thought
and can overcome the neediness of the heart
It's a good day, today

Natural

Every day, I step up to the plate
I've work hard before hand
I can hit the ball
I've hit it so far
Today I struck out
It's easy to look down
Because no ones around
Will this record stop repeating
Can I once again hit the ball out of the park
And be the man that I am

Just chatin

Hey everyone. Once again I hope that you're all enjoying my blog. I recently started to publish my poems on it. I'm not that good I know, but hey I don't care. So I been through one of the most difficult times of my life. And I'm not talking it up. This year started off amazing, because although I'm grateful for last year, it wasn't what I had hope for. So when 2009 came a lot had changed. Four things came into my life that was like a breath of fresh air. 1) I met a girl named Cory 2) The boy scouts asked me to be a Chaplin for one of there camps this summer 3) I finally stared taking Business classes at west valley 4) I was able to score a position at my church to help lead there young adults group (college).
The week after my Birthday (March 5th) the year was destroyed. The girl that I was becoming friends with, I realized that I was giving to much of myself to and had to take a step back, very hard. School became a nightmare and five of the six classes I'm taking up'ed the work load times ten. And the position at church fell through, because the young adults group was being cancelled.
09 came without mercy to my house but I didn't fight the hurt. I took it and didn't avoid it. But this year will be great I know it. I can't wait for the redemption of this year. It's only april and I am still gratefull for who I am, who I've become, and where I'm at.
Last night I was able to hang out with my cousin. She is so awesome, and so fricken bright. I've been hangin out with an old buddy named luke, who by the way is getting married soon. We went capming and fishing. And last weekend we went to Pizmo where we crashed his car and I cracked my nose. I been worshiping a lot more, and coming closer to God. A lot of good is in this year so far. This year is hard, but God is so faithful not to save me from pain, but to grow me. This will be a good year.