Never give up

^{Acts 27:18-20 " 18}We took such a violent battering from the storm that the next day they began to throw the cargo overboard. ¹⁹On the third day, they threw the ship's tackle overboard with their own hands. ²⁰When neither sun nor stars appeared for many days and the storm continued raging, we finally gave up all hope of being saved."

This is at the end of the book of acts. Paul is going to Rome to be tried as a Roman for blasphemy, I think. Anyway, so there sailing to Rome, when a violent storms comes up out of no where and just attacks the ship. They start throwing stuff off to lighten the boat for hopes of redemption, but to no avail. Finally they throw the ship's tackle off and gave up all hope.

A ship's tackle is the gear that is used in ship. So like ropes for sails, compass, etc. If you ever get caught in life or death situation where you need to live off the land for many days till rescue come, the will to survive is all that matters (thanks, surviverman) . How long can you still content, at peace, at rest when your life has a storm? How long can you survive? Some people think they can, because they can. Hard mind, hard heart, a die hard, and you'll go the way of the Dodo. We can't survive alone, we need manna, and so when life comes down hard don't throw your tackle off your life. How are you supposed to get home with no tackle, with no ropes or a compass? You'll be lost at sea.
Never give up on prayer and others praying for you. Never give up on scripture. And most importantly never give up in worship, for it's worship that sustains us.

"Lord redeem me. Redeem what I've given up on. Help me get back home. I'll set my eyes on you, for you are my true north. Draw me close and remove all my carnality. Empty, and fill me back up with you savior."

I'm more blessed than I deserve

It's a good day
Worship was excellent
Friends are great
I always love to hear Justin
Especially his prayer
When you get more done than you thought
and can overcome the neediness of the heart
It's a good day, today

Natural

Every day, I step up to the plate
I've work hard before hand
I can hit the ball
I've hit it so far
Today I struck out
It's easy to look down
Because no ones around
Will this record stop repeating
Can I once again hit the ball out of the park
And be the man that I am

Just chatin

Hey everyone. Once again I hope that you're all enjoying my blog. I recently started to publish my poems on it. I'm not that good I know, but hey I don't care. So I been through one of the most difficult times of my life. And I'm not talking it up. This year started off amazing, because although I'm grateful for last year, it wasn't what I had hope for. So when 2009 came a lot had changed. Four things came into my life that was like a breath of fresh air. 1) I met a girl named Cory 2) The boy scouts asked me to be a Chaplin for one of there camps this summer 3) I finally stared taking Business classes at west valley 4) I was able to score a position at my church to help lead there young adults group (college).
The week after my Birthday (March 5th) the year was destroyed. The girl that I was becoming friends with, I realized that I was giving to much of myself to and had to take a step back, very hard. School became a nightmare and five of the six classes I'm taking up'ed the work load times ten. And the position at church fell through, because the young adults group was being cancelled.
09 came without mercy to my house but I didn't fight the hurt. I took it and didn't avoid it. But this year will be great I know it. I can't wait for the redemption of this year. It's only april and I am still gratefull for who I am, who I've become, and where I'm at.
Last night I was able to hang out with my cousin. She is so awesome, and so fricken bright. I've been hangin out with an old buddy named luke, who by the way is getting married soon. We went capming and fishing. And last weekend we went to Pizmo where we crashed his car and I cracked my nose. I been worshiping a lot more, and coming closer to God. A lot of good is in this year so far. This year is hard, but God is so faithful not to save me from pain, but to grow me. This will be a good year.

a good day

I am sustained again
Being held together by healing hands

I quit fighting the weight of the wind
I quit resisting all the sorrow

I can rest again
Being held together by healing hands

The oppressing weight is still here
I quit resisting all my sorrows

My Question

Do I meet what is asked of me at my age?
Do I live up to the bar that has been set before me
How does a man know
And where will he go

Do I meet what is asked of me at my age?
Are you proud of me father
Are you happy with the choices I've made
I've tried so desperately to be your molded clay

Do I meet what is asked of me at my age?
Family, do I make you smile
Do I bring healing to your tears
Your weight from all the years

Do I meet what is asked of me at my age?
My life is a story of great love and pain
Have I taken it all in vain
All I can see is all the hurt and pain
Do I live up to your name?

The skeleton

The enemy is outside my castle
His sword is drawn
I have a trader inside
Ready to trade at dawn
I miss her so
I miss her delight
Her hug was my light